learning to trust...easier said than done...

I have been challenged lately on the whole trust deal. Trusting God, as well as trusting others whom i'm getting to know more here at PAC. I think that sometimes as people, (or at least i have experienced this) we tend to take trust lightly, in that we say we trust in certain things or certain people all the time, without even thinking. I believe that if we really sit down and think about those people that we say we trust, and we really study our relationships, we might find that we have sort-of thrown around the "trust" word. i know personally, just lately the Lord has been challenging me with this idea, with Him and in my relationship with Him, but also with others. Since every relationship we have in our lives is different from all the others, how can we expect to have the same trust, or deepness of relationship with all of them? - we can't - but sometimes we do. That's what we expect. I have realized that every single person is unique and completely different from everyone else, and so likewise all of our relationships are completely different - it may seem like a simple concept, and it really is, it's just that lately i've been challenged, because no matter how simple or not, i just haven't really sat down and thought about it. i think i have been thinking about this a lot here, because i am far away from everyone that i do trust. i do not have any close close relationships here (yet), because i have only been here one month, it is not possible. To trust someone takes time. The fact that i am far away from all of those people that i have known and trust, has really enabled me to deepen my trust in Jesus - he has become the one true person that i trust with EVERYTHING. - and i know that this is how it should be, always, however i think that our natural tendency is to want to depend and talk to and rely on people in our lives rather than Jesus. So as challenging as some moments have been here, i thank the Lord that he has brought me here, because i know he has an awesome purpose in doing so and part of that is that i would grow spiritually and grow in him and learn to trust him, not just with some things, but with EVERY single aspect of my life. - This is definitely a process though. i am aways falling down, and making mistakes, but most importantly - learning from all of these experiences. i think that God had to take me from where i am comfortable and bring me to a place where i knew nothing. i needed that, because i needed and still need to learn how to rely on him COMPLETELY. and i think it took me coming to africa to realize that. i needed to get away from everything that i'd ever known. it seems very radical, but i know that's what i needed, and of course God knew that. So i don't know if any of that made any sense, but that is just one huge lesson that God is teaching me here, and just some things that i've been thinking about, and i know that there is more to come. So please keep me in your prayers as i am learning these things, they're not aways easy to learn, of course there is challenge involved, so i appreciate your prayers.
hmm.....what else to tell you.....i can't think of any really interesting stories at the moment, i know that i have some i just can't think..so when i remember i'll write again. Basically i'm doing well here. Always learning. - and mostly not in my studies...haha....just from people, and experiences and different things here. (although the studies are good...)
i'm very very very excited for my family to come....something like 24 days!!! ahH!H!H......so that's the big thing that i'm looking forward to right now. :)
so i hope that all of you are doing well!! i miss you all, and i wish that you could be seeing what i am seeing but i know that you are all learning a lot back in Canada too. Please keep the comments and emails coming..i LOVE hearing what you're up to, and all of that good stuff!!
love and God Bless!
~jade~
ps- just a little shout out----------->HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE KERRY I LOVEYOU SO MUCH!!!!! HAVE THE BEST DAY EVER.....YOU KNOW I WISH I COULD BE THERE, BUT KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ALWAYS, BUT ESPECIALLY TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! :)